Reincarnation

End of my first day being so far away
and most of it has consisted of thoughts of you.
I did what few little things I could to keep me
from worrying because I know that's not what
you would want, but I can't stop myself from
being truly in love.

A song came on my playlist that I have never heard,
right before I was about to shut it down, Fate gave
me those words. Thank you Track 10, by an unknown
artist, on an unknown album, for you know exactly how
I feel.

Laying down on the asphalt that still holds a bit of warmth
against the cooling night, staring at the stars that have
their chance to shine. I feel the breeze wash over me, hear
it drench the weeds along the street, overwhelmed by the
simplicity...

Sometimes you need to die so you can see the world through newborn eyes.

10:02 PM

I put my keys in the ignition
with the full intent to drive.
But a thought escaped with
the tears from my eyes and
I got so sick from the birth of it-
"What if those three words will never hold the same meaning again?"

So I choked them out and I
hated the sound mixed with the sadness
in your stride as you came around
my car, which was making slow beeps
and all my mind would see was the way
monitors portray a dying heartbeat and
I wanted to scream-
"Don't let this flat-line"

But I just stepped out of your arms and let my fingers slide,
forming a gate out of the cage that you've been trapped inside.

An intro of sorts

So I guess I should say a bit about myself and why I started and this and so on..so let's go back to the beginning.

I was born November 17th of 1990 at 12:15 am, 8lbs 10 oz 20" long. I started homeschooling when I was two, learning basic arithmetic with mom in the kitchen cutting up apples. I spent 11 years of my life on religion and trying to seek my parents approval. After that I did what any good new heathen would do and started getting into so much trouble it would amaze you. I had a horse who saved my life when I saved his. He passed away a year and a half ago. I now have Luna, my pit bull coyote mix who is really just a person hiding in a four legged furry body. Luna has a pet, Ransom, who is dumb as rocks but extremely good looking.
3 siblings-older brother, who is my rock in the ocean. Older sister, who is the understanding shoulder when I need someone to lean on. Younger brother, who amazes me with his intelligence and innocence. Also two of the best family-by-love (I hate the term "In-laws", it's like what if they aren't married they're out-laws?) Chris and Courtenay, both of whom complete my older siblings and make them so happy.
I'm terrified of monkeys and cockroaches, I hate cauliflower but I love broccoli, I was engaged at age 16 and even bought a wedding dress that I am now ready to part with. I graduated high school at age 16, left home at 17, made a life for myself in Montana for 8 amazing months. Returned to Arizona simply because I felt I needed to. Which leads me to my next point...I go by my gut more often than logic or others opinion. I am a recently out of the closet bisexual, which does not mean I say that because it's now the cool thing to do or because I'm some sex crazed young girl. I will not make out with your girlfriend and let you watch. Get over it.
The only bones I've broken are my toes. I've broken all of them. Some more than once. Yay dancers.
I love the color red and redheads. As a matter of fact if I could make a wardrobe that consisted of red, white, black, and a few grays I would be set. Make note-I don't like pink.
I love photography, acting, writing, dancing,and I would love drawing if I didn't fail so miserably at it. I can't even do stick figures justice.
I'm sick of writing about myself and I'm sure you grow weary of reading, so just know in the future my posts usually won't be so self oriented. But they should be interesting still so you know..keep an eye on it. Toods!